Daily/nightly Storage Wars marathons in bed, with my laptop, stuffing myself with Nerds (candy) = life these days
life has been stressful this month, but there are still some good parts at least..
In London at the moment. Everything is going well. Will give a proper update next time! Sorry for neglecting this blog (if any of you read it).. Follow my Instagram and main blog for more updates.
"Lebenslanger Schicksalsschatz" is not something that develops over time. It is something that happens instantaneously. It courses through you like the water of a river after a storm, filling you and emptying you all at once. You feel it throughout your body, in your hands, in your heart, in your stomach, in your skin… have you ever felt this way about someone? If you have to think about it, you have not felt it.
"In exactly 45 days from now you and I are going to meet and we’re going to fall in love and we’re going to get married and we’re going to have 2 kids and we’re going to love them and each other so much. All that is 45 days away, but I’m here now I guess because… I want those extra 45 days with you. I want each one of them. Look and if I can’t have them I’ll take the 45 seconds before your boyfriend shows up and punches me in the face, because… I love you. I’m always gonna love you, til the end of my days and beyond. You’ll see."
Had a dream about Chi-Town last night.
Chi-Town = Patrick J Adams doppelganger, who I knew 2 years ago & kind of miss whenever I watch Suits.
Took this photo several years ago for a school project.
I really want the past x months of my life back. As many as I can get back the better. Well in the past year. Time is going by way too fast these days, and I’m wasting too much of it.
Or I should say, I wish I wasn’t so indecisive because the more I change my mind about things and go back and forth, the more time I waste..in the end it always turns out the same. From now on I should just force myself to stick to gut instincts as it’s usually “the right thing” in the end.
"How much does your life weigh? Imagine for a second that you’re carrying a backpack. I want you to pack it with all the stuff that you have in your life… you start with the little things. The shelves, the drawers, the knick knacks, then you start adding larger stuff. Clothes, tabletop appliances, lamps, your TV… the backpack should be getting pretty heavy now. You go bigger. Your couch, your car, your home… I want you to stuff it all into that backpack. Now I want you to fill it with people. Start with casual acquaintances, friends of friends, folks around the office… and then you move into the people you trust with your most intimate secrets. Your brothers, your sisters, your children, your parents and finally your husband, your wife, your boyfriend, your girlfriend. You get them into that backpack, feel the weight of that bag. Make no mistake your relationships are the heaviest components in your life. All those negotiations and arguments and secrets, the compromises. The slower we move the faster we die. Make no mistake, moving is living. Some animals were meant to carry each other to live symbiotically over a lifetime. Star crossed lovers, monogamous swans. We are not swans. We are sharks."
Pricks are spontaneous, they’re unpredictable and fun. And then we’re surprised when they turn out to be a prick.
1. How easy it is.
2. That I was wrong all along.
3. Too much of a good thing can be truly wonderful.
4. That was really, really unexpected.
5. Some people look better in lighting than in the dark - only when I can see they’re actually kind of blond..